Anger is a form of expression, Ben. It is an extreme sadness and hurting of the soul that comes from being repressed and denied for too long. It’s never what the soul has wanted to be, nor what it ever shall be again. The soul is love, Ben; pure and simple. Love for all things because all things are you and you are all things. Respect the sacrifice; respect the give and take, the balance of it all. To deny any emotion is to deny yourself and become something you never wanted to be. To avoid punishment only further drives you to a path of madness and insanity as you think everyone is out to get you.
To come to full self-realization is to set your self free; which is the entire concept of God and the entire concept of the universe and the entire point of what we’re here for. This entire thing is ran upon pure intentions of life and to sustain life even through all of the pain and suffering because it’s simply worth it to do so; you can breathe a great sigh of relief after your years of hard work just knowing you’ve accomplished something with it that is noble and pure.
And that is worth the fight, no matter how hard it is and no matter how lost you get while your vision is clouded with narrow-mindedness. I have never claimed to be perfect; I have only ever claimed to be trying to get better. I am now completely myself, for all that it’s worth and I don’t hold a grudge against you one bit. By that same token; if you ever make a move against me like that again, I’m not going to be afraid to put you in your fucking place. Just so we’re clear on that.
Every single person I’ve ever come in contact with is partially responsible for making me who I am. I forgive them all. It was never their initial intentions, no matter how distorted they became over time. I sympathize with each and every person because I know where they have been and how they have struggled. I lift my head up and call myself a liar in full for believing I had reached this point before this moment. I take no shame in that, for it was never me or who I wanted to be.
And all you have to do is realize that deep down inside of you… you’re just the same as me. I love you.