by Ecmandu » Fri Sep 25, 2020 11:55 pm
Cherry Blossom Rain: Chapter 31
Me still talking to my 16 year old self...
I asked my older self why I say that the wicked have better lives...
Ok, let me put it to you very simply.
I’m hyper sexual ... I will always want to have sex with anyone I’d want to have sex with.
I don’t have sex. It’s not fun.
But here you have all these fuckheads, running around, fucking anything they want, having babies, having families, and they fucking love their lives.
I refuse sex for MORAL reasons!!!
I think if you have sex with someone you desire, you are a winner in a world of 8 billion losers.
That’s the worst fucking idea I’ve ever heard!!!
But people do it day in and day out, perfectly content, and ZERO morality.
I’m trying to wake this species up. Sometimes it’s not fun.
But Jason, one advantage you have over the wicked is how fucking beautiful it is to live in your mind. You may not have the adulation of sex, but when these people get sent to deeper hells, you can survive when they can’t. You were forged in hell. Stupid shit for sure, always is, but you’ll always be able to be beautiful. And beauty inside and out (and you’re not much to look at) is always the most valuable thing in existence.
People with no morals delight in it, but it’s a shallow delight, it’s not the delight of coming against and with the breath of life itself.