Oughtist wrote:Damn, my printer's out of toner. ... looks like a been-there-done-that thing, though in my case it was during Grad School Philosophy, and my coloring outside of the lines was purely abstract and did not involve the intervention of Authority. It did, however, seriously impact my capacity to maintain the decorum required to write anything intelligible. I will buy some toner tomorrow.
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Oughtist wrote:Damn, my printer's out of toner. ... looks like a been-there-done-that thing, though in my case it was during Grad School Philosophy, and my coloring outside of the lines was purely abstract and did not involve the intervention of Authority. It did, however, seriously impact my capacity to maintain the decorum required to write anything intelligible. I will buy some toner tomorrow.
The invention of authority? What are you referring to really?
anon wrote:WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Oughtist wrote:Damn, my printer's out of toner. ... looks like a been-there-done-that thing, though in my case it was during Grad School Philosophy, and my coloring outside of the lines was purely abstract and did not involve the intervention of Authority. It did, however, seriously impact my capacity to maintain the decorum required to write anything intelligible. I will buy some toner tomorrow.
The invention of authority? What are you referring to really?
Intervention
Teddy wrote:Amazing! Right now as I'm posting this I have only read 3 pages but it is good so far. It is fairly well written and gave me a good look at how people with psychosis reason. Thank You. I will have more to say upon completion.
Jakob wrote:Why do you have that boys face as your avatar?
simonsays wrote:Is that all real? Is your diagnosis bipolar? I am amazed you remember so much details. Thank you for sharing it with us. I hope you're doing better now.
simonsays wrote:I did not mean to make such an accusation. It's just that I have met people who have had psychotic experiences and many don't remember the details, specially what happened during the episode. Perhaps you gathered this info partly based on what doctors said, police/hospital records, family recollections, and checked it against your own memory of the event.
You do not have to tell me your diagnosis either and perhaps that was an intrusive question and I apologize. The only reason I asked that, is I glanced through the document and thought I may have missed it. Also, that some psychotic episodes are only drug related, while others (schizophrenia, bipolar) can occur on a regular basis and significantly influence the quality of life. I have read some of your posts and I find it difficult to imagine you were that same person who went through so much: you come across as very intelligent, and like you have your shit together better than most "healthy" people. Kudos to you!
fuse wrote:Wow, WWIII, you were really like that? I mean, I know nothing about you except that you have a family and seem to be a pretty reasonable guy. I have to say, I couldn't help but laugh at some of the craziness that went on. Britney Spears... But I don't doubt that it was a dark time for you. You made one remark about your dad and how sad it makes you feel thinking back on what it must have been like for him. That kinda made me feel sorry for you and all the pain it caused. When did you write all that down? What happened after that crazy car chase and your arrest?
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:And hey... Britney Spears used to be different
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:I made some "friends" in population, in that I was a crazy ass mf'er who got away with watching what I wanted on the one TV for one hour a day and changed it without any complaints to the news..
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Anyways I got out of jail, went back to therapy, took my pills, got better, got a job, got married, got a better job, moved, got raises, had a child...
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:...and here I am talking about logic and philosophy with you fine intellects.
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:You seem to have experience with mental illness, what is your tale on that?
fuse wrote:I have this idea that my mind is rather fragile and that the things I think about combined with stress combined with irregular sleep and diet makes me ripe for developing a serious mental disorder like schizophrenia or something. For the past few years, I've been pushed to the limit with stress, lack of interest in things that normal people care about, irregular sleeping/eating habits, errant attention and the inability to focus, and intermittent periods of ferocious thinking and insight. I get this feeling sometimes and I'm on edge. I mean I already went through a minor depression toward the end of high school, struggled with high anxiety and a mood disorder, and I'm at the perfect age for the onset of something nasty like schizophrenia. I just feel mentally vulnerable. The funny thing is, the idea of going through something like that more intrigues me than scares me. I'm not saying I would welcome it.WW_III_ANGRY wrote:And hey... Britney Spears used to be different
yes, this is true, I remember those days...she was pretty sexy and I was only like 10...back when Poke'mon was cool (for 10 year olds) and when NSYNC was big (that was my favorite band for a year or so...lol)
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:I made some "friends" in population, in that I was a crazy ass mf'er who got away with watching what I wanted on the one TV for one hour a day and changed it without any complaints to the news..
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Anyways I got out of jail, went back to therapy, took my pills, got better, got a job, got married, got a better job, moved, got raises, had a child...
I'm looking forward to all these things.WW_III_ANGRY wrote:...and here I am talking about logic and philosophy with you fine intellects.
Oh, well, really I try to be modest about my intellect, but, since you mention it, I suppose it is something fine (not to mention towering). I was in a humanities scholarship program at school and it seemed to me that the program was full of pretentious students and faculty...surprise. I liked being around intelligent people, but I can't stand that air of arrogant pretension and I have always spurned the invitation of cliques. As for cliques, I just don't like falling in with that kind of group identity. It feels too closed off and I can't be bothered to observe clique "rules". Ironically, because I used to be anxious in social situations and because I have always enjoyed solitude and time alone, I have often ended up isolating myself socially -- which makes me far more closed off than any clique -- but at least I have never been subsumed by some pretentious group identity...eff that.
simonsays wrote:WW_III_ANGRY wrote:You seem to have experience with mental illness, what is your tale on that?
I studied psychology in college, but also I have dealt with your run-of-the-mill anxiety/depression symptoms and all that crap. My sister has paranoid schizophrenia though. I rarely see her and she doesn't remember much about her psychotic episodes and is also not open like you are with your experiences...she rarely talks to me...or anybody, for that matter.
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Of course depression can be alluring thing and it can consume an individual and finally break them. Tread carefully. The early 20's are trying.
fuse wrote:WW_III_ANGRY wrote:Of course depression can be alluring thing and it can consume an individual and finally break them. Tread carefully. The early 20's are trying.
Nihilism has actually become a comforting thought when I am stressed -- that things need only matter insofar as I think they matter. But that's not quite right. I suppose I have been deceiving myself into thinking I don't care when it is biologically determined that I do care. It's a dangerous line to walk, but it helps me not to sweat the small stuff. For the big things, I have to remind myself that there are good reasons why they are big and why they matter.
WW_III_ANGRY wrote:And how's the nihilism working out for you today? Progressing any?
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