The Deathbed Playlist

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The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Wed Jul 01, 2020 8:49 am

Sometimes it’s so hard to explain.

PLEASE DO NOT FEED THE SQUIRRELS, was posted on signs everywhere at Carter Park. The signs hung all over the place, catching my eye a thousand times. More signs here than you’d ever see on any street, even those under-construction roadwork jobs. Bolted to each fence, these metal signs begged for mercy, while I walked around the race track, about to sprinkle peanuts.

Two cops in matching uniforms approached from a distance. They converged on me. Daylight was getting dim, causing the two cops to look like menacing figures.

Dipping my left hand inside my secret jacket pocket, I felt the salt stick to my fingertips. I pulled a cashew out. Then I exhaled some tense air just before dropping the nut, full release.

It wasn’t exactly terrorism at scale, but it did excite me greatly, as if I were a sly man.

The first word on each sign, PLEASE, was printed in the delicate slant of italics, politely wishing for order, stressing the command, really. The next part of the phrase, DO NOT, was underlined in such a harsh bold type, it sounded like rage from park management. FEED THE SQUIRRELS, was a reminder that these things are far from tame. What the signs banned was clear. But the sheer number of signs had a more important, underlying message: FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, STOP GIVING WILD ANIMALS A REASON TO BITE.

The two cops, they confronted me. They looked ready to arrest. They demanded that I produce identification, which I did. I waited for them to radio my name, Sidlow Wilson, over to dispatch.

The first cop said, “What are you doing in the park after dark?”

Apparently, that was another rule here, nobody allowed in the park at night.

“Not exercising,” I answered with a fair amount of confidence.

“Not,” the first cop repeated his deep struggle to understand, “exercising?”

The second cop interjected, saying, “The football field has been spray painted on. Bunch of red marks made against the team logo. What do you know about that?”

He used an accusing tone, like I knew guilt.

From what these two cops told me, they said the cartoon blue devil on the fifty-yard line had been spray painted over with a big red X.
They suspected that I’m the one who vandalized it, or at least saw who did.

As they continued to extract the full reason of why I was at the park after hours, I rubbed my fingertips free of cashew dust.

I thought again about the squirrel signs. But I tried not to glance at them for too long. The lettering on each sign was a light blue color, same color as the high school mascot, a blue devil. The big red X must’ve startled them with such a contrast. But I wasn’t to blame for it.
When they shook my body down for weapons or drugs, I heard snack wrappers crinkle inside my pants. And when I didn’t justify my presence to their total satisfaction, I was arrested. Taken to headquarters to answer more questions. Guessing by the way they tossed me in the back of the patrol car, there was also the possibility of actual physical torture.

Down at the station. Still in handcuffs. Sitting in front of a police chief. I was asked again about my after-dark-park-status.

“My problems are threefold,” I said. “I can’t go home.”
It annoyed even me to hear myself talk like that, how I used the word threefold.

“And why can’t you go home?” the police chief said, resting his knuckles on the desk.

“Because,” I said, “I think my birth father has just moved into the apartment next to mine. And I might kill him.”

The police chief had a duty to pry for more: “Why would you want to kill your own father?”

I gave him the stark reply: “When I was two years old, my father was part of a Satanic cult. It was at one of his bonfire gatherings, where he planned to sacrifice my virgin body to the flames. But, that night, the FBI raided the whole secret woods meeting. They broke everything up, just thirty seconds after my father dropped me into a fire pit. So, yeah, I want to kill him. Because he tried to burn me alive. He did jail time. And I haven’t seen him since. Until now. Thirty years later.”

The police chief took his knuckles off the desk. Instead he folded his arms. Then he said, “And you claim your father just moved into your apartment building. Where? Above you? Below you?”

“Next to me. We share the same wall.”

Arms still folded, the police chief went on to ask, “Why would he move in next to you? Now? After all these years?”

“My grandmother warned me over the phone. That my father has changed, spiritually. That he found a good, proper religion. And that he wants to get to know his son. I mean, I didn’t even recognize him at first.”

“What if I tell you,” the police chief began, “that I get loony types in here all the time, making up every imaginable loony story. So then, what makes you think that I should trust this twisted tale of yours, this Satanic sacrifice?”

At that point, I asked for the handcuffs to come off. I wanted to show him the burns on my back.

I was marked by fire, marked by flame.
Welted by the blaze.
Scorched.
My back scar was forever a purplish white.

The police chief was desperate for evidence, fumbling with the keys to the cuffs. And when I lifted my shirt to turn around, I could hear him take a deep breath, as if transfixed by some sick fascination.
He came back from his delightful nightmare, clearing his throat to say, “But you stated your problems are threefold. Your father is one problem. What are the other two problems you’re having?”

“I don’t really want to go into it.” I said, standing up. “Actually, I just told you my reason for being at the park. I’d like to leave now.”

Much to my immediate surprise, the police chief motioned to escort me out to the station lobby. He had a happy skip to his step like he bought a ticket to the circus to see the freaks and he received his full price worth. My back scar has engineered sympathy before, but in this case, it seemed to give a disturbing sparkle to his sadistic eye.

“Don’t go back to the park,” he said with a snide grin. “And don’t go home. I don’t want to get a call that you’re in the middle of the street with a bloody baseball bat, because you just killed your devil loving daddy.”

So I made a quick exit. Walking the streets again. Escaping without a single criminal charge.
I took my threefold problems to the cornershop, where I bought some more peanuts. Then I went back to Carter Park.
The park was all moon beam. Stadium floodlights turned off.
I was the only one around.
Under the bleachers of the football field, I planted peanuts in the tall grass.
The whole idea here was to get the squirrels on a steady diet. Then, after a few months of feeding them, I would starve them a little. Get them ravenous right around Thanksgiving, just in time for the big high school football game between Twin-City rivals. The main idea here was to get these tree-jumping rat cousins to invade the game, which would ruin the holiday homecoming for so many people. Sending everyone running, racing away from those black beady eyes. Those fuzzy tails. Those rabid teeth.
It wasn’t exactly a grand plan, but it did serve as a great distraction from the man who waited for me, my evil neighbor dad. I just needed something else to obsess over, so I wouldn’t break my wall down and stab him in the heart with a carving fork.

Now I took refuge in the recreational hall, the boys locker room. I had a terrible need for sleep but I couldn’t go back to the bed in my apartment. So I shut my eyes in the bathroom stall.
Sports teams had been doing double sessions this hot early June, what they call, Hell Week. The entire place stunk of piss and the sweat of jockey shorts. I sat upright on a closed toilet, slipping to the side when I started to nod off.

Suddenly, the door to the locker room burst open.
A bunch of officials, some uniformed, some not, stormed inside. Obviously, the spray paint vandal had required a serious stakeout operation in the area. Detectives in trench coats, that sort of thing.
They arrested me again, put me face down on the locker room floor.
This time they didn’t ask me any questions. This time they brought me straight to jail. They put me alone in a tight cell. For what? I don’t know. Maybe trespassing. Maybe they thought there was a connection between the blue devil icon on the field and the red horned one my father attempted to donate my sweet soul to.

In the cell, using a toilet paper roll for a pillow made me angry. No blanket.
Standing on the cement slab for a bed, I got up close to the light fixture. I examined the screws that kept the light secured to the roof.
Just then, all in one motion, I struck that light with my fist so hard the fuse inside the bulb twitched three times before going dead.
Destruction of property while in police custody was sure to spike the wrath of the judge that next morning.

But I kept reminding myself throughout the night, any punishment would be small compared to murder.
Father’s Day was less than a week away. So I sat there and I gnashed my teeth and I stewed in anger and I planned to kill him then.
In three days.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Mon Oct 05, 2020 10:57 am

Musick has Charms to sooth the savage Breast,
To soften Rocks, or bend a knotted Oak.
I’ve read, that things inanimate have mov’d,
And, as with living Souls, have been inform’d,
By Magick Numbers and persuasive Sound
What then am I? Am I more senseless grown
Than Trees, or Flint? O force of constant Woe!
‘Tis not in Harmony to calm my Griefs.
Anselmo sleeps, and is at Peace; last Night
The silent Tomb receiv’d the good Old King;
He and his Sorrows are now safely lodg’d
Within its cold hospitable Bosom.
Why am I not at Peace?

—The Mourning Bride, William Congreave
(1697)
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Tue Oct 06, 2020 8:16 pm

I dunno why the twin city park smells loring compares to Griffith park , a much grandstand enveloping western skies and particularly 60'd chevies that levi, or rather levitate in the blooming ether of images below

Other ones like mcarthur park downtown are like fill agreed cakes garnished with melting bonbons.

I squirreled away a few bucks, with devoted spauce's more then ample help.

The wide. sky sheltering like Moroccan dessert compressed visions that need immediate and essential display, all in a night's dream at midsummer, for having been unable to crawl out, to exit where few not dare but oblivion blocks the muse that feeds it

So on with it.
The shoe must go on said Sullivan or more do in Salavan

a Margaret a few specks here and there.just two, thats the limit you know!

So then what?


Now expect something else I know suddenly last summer could write mere one stanza to describe a tortuously tabulating van
go where it mainly suits , following non discript sink into ethereal underground.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Tue Oct 06, 2020 8:26 pm

Meno_ wrote:I dunno why the twin city park smells loring compares to Griffith park , a much grandstand enveloping western skies and particularly 60'd chevies that levi, or rather levitate in the blooming ether of images below

Other ones like mcarthur park downtown are like fill agreed cakes garnished with melting bonbons.

I squirreled away a few bucks, with devoted spauce's more then ample help.

The wide. sky sheltering like Moroccan dessert compressed visions that need immediate and essential display, all in a night's dream at midsummer, for having been unable to crawl out, to exit where few not dare but oblivion blocks the muse that feeds it

So on with it.
The shoe must go on said Sullivan or more do in Salavan

a Margaret a few specks here and there.just two, thats the limit you know!

So then what?


Now expect something else I know suddenly last summer could write mere one stanza to describe a tortuously tabulating van
go where it mainly suits , following non discript sink into ethereal underground.



To the eternal park in the eternal tree still standing erect after all those crazy lazy years.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Wed Oct 07, 2020 8:06 am

constant stylings, meno, keep it coming
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby MagsJ » Wed Oct 07, 2020 10:08 am

The OP.. =D>

A very well-written piece indeed.
The possibility of anything we can imagine existing is endless and infinite.. - MagsJ
I haven't got the time to spend the time reading something that is telling me nothing, as I will never be able to get back that time, and I may need it for something at some point in time.. Huh! - MagsJ
You’re suggestions and I, just simply don’t mix.. like oil on water, or a really bad DJ - MagsJ
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Wed Oct 07, 2020 3:02 pm

MagsJ wrote:The OP.. =D>

A very well-written piece indeed.


Thank you, very much.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Mon Oct 12, 2020 10:44 pm

[quote="Berkley Babes"]constant stylings, meno, keep it coming[/quote


Tryin'
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Tue Oct 13, 2020 11:00 am

Meno_ wrote:
Berkley Babes wrote:constant stylings, meno, keep it coming[/quote


Tryin'


Me too, haha. Hard.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Tue Oct 13, 2020 11:39 pm

Berkley Babes wrote:
Meno_ wrote:
Berkley Babes wrote:constant stylings, meno, keep it coming[/quote


Tryin'


Me too, haha. Hard.




Me three haha , nah jus'playin' l!


( for now)
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Wed Oct 14, 2020 10:05 am

Tryin'[/quote][/quote]

Me too, haha. Hard.[/quote]



Me three haha , nah jus'playin' l!


( for now)[/quote]

Funny crazy, weird and wild.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Wed Oct 14, 2020 6:29 pm

Berkley Babes wrote:Tryin'
[/quote]

Me too, haha. Hard.[/quotok, that does it, I'm re-readin' 'Deathbed'!


Me three haha , nah jus'playin' l!


( for now)[/quote]

Funny crazy, weird and wild.[/quote]
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Wed Oct 14, 2020 6:31 pm

Meno_ wrote:
Berkley Babes wrote:Tryin'


Me too, haha. Hard.[/quotok, that does it, I'm re-readin' 'Deathbed'!


Me three haha , nah jus'playin' l!


( for now)[/quote]

Funny crazy, weird and wild.[/quote][/quote]




Me too, haha. Hard.[/quotok, that does it, I'm re-readin' 'Deathbed'
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Wed Oct 14, 2020 6:32 pm

Me too, haha. Hard.[/quotok, that does it, I'm re-readin' 'Deathbed'
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Thu Oct 15, 2020 11:27 am

the ultimate re-reader meno... anyway its chapter 1 of an unfinished novel.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Thu Oct 15, 2020 4:16 pm

Berkley Babes wrote:the ultimate re-reader meno... anyway its chapter 1 of an unfinished novel.


Heavy You considered initially, if the ending would have been foreshadowed in any of the parts, or, chapters awing the way, or, it could have been better separated the chapters. So as to follow several recurring plots in simultenity, initially cut off from each other?

So as to give the impression of an expectation, that farther up, they would form a more sensible trajectory of it? ( the ending)

Course You probably want to do neither, but leave it unfinished?


My guess is, that maybe , letting it to write itself is the best option , and here again in guessing.



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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Meno_ » Fri Oct 16, 2020 12:30 am

' justbecause they may not conspire only a non concerning , pure attitude will keep them at bay like vicious, snarling dogs.
And that is being able to reject such devilish offers , similar to the one Christ could withstand, when he too stood on a mountain top with that old hypocrate.


Otherwise loosing your soul is no mean bargain, like the one Faust had to endure.
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Re: The Deathbed Playlist

Postby Berkley Babes » Tue Oct 20, 2020 12:18 pm

"trompe le monde"
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