it is our rate of understanding of entropy that also changes…
when I was younger, say 40, I could tell I couldn’t do the things I did
when I was 19 or 20…but it didn’t dawn on me that that was entropy or
as we humans call it, old age. Now that I am 61, it is quite clear
I am well in the midst of entropy or old age…
my understanding of who I am/was and what my place is/was,
has changed as I have gotten older…
if I try to explain to a 20 year old, what it means to get old,
they would have no idea because they don’t have the
experiences or knowledge to understand me…
but if I explain what is love or what is some bodily need, they
would understand because it is something they have knowledge
of or have experienced themselves…
to most people, what I write is gobbledygook because what I write
is outside of their knowledge or experience…I seem to be really dumb
or quite obscure because what I write doesn’t fit into most people experiences
or knowledge ……. but no matter how I try to reduce it or bring it down to
earth, until they experience it, people will never get what I am trying to say…
and that is ok……
my knowledge and experiences are just that, mine…
and I don’t need or require that you understand that knowledge
or experience…just as you don’t need me to understand your
knowledge or experience…
but I can get you to reexamine and reevaluate what you believe in
and what you take to be “your” values and biases and superstitions
and prejudices and indoctrinations………are your values and understanding
of the world really “yours” or do you hold those indoctrinated values of
childhood given to you by your family and the state and the media and
the church?
that is really the choice I am giving you…what are your values
and are they really your values or have you simply carried on
those childhood indoctrinations?
a good, a really good example of someone who has never examined
their values is IQ45… he still lives by and understands the world by
his childhood indoctrinations…indoctrinations of family and state
and church and social groups and society…….
I began my reexamination of my values because of the contradictions
I discovered between what I was told and what I found out about the world
was… I found that my indoctrinations of childhood and my experiences
of the world were different…and by examining my own values, I could
reconcile those contradictions between the theory of my indoctrinations
and the reality of my life…… I fashioned my understanding of the world,
based on my experiences of the world instead of the indoctrinations
I received as a child…
I reexamined my values given to me as a child and found them wanting…
those values were unable to offer me an understanding of the world
that matched what I found on the ground, in reality…
and so I had to adjust my values to match the experiences
and reality of what I found…
I was told about god, but in my experiences, I found
I had no need for god… the belief in god didn’t help me
with understanding my own possibilities or my reality…
it interfered with it and so I became an Atheist because it
better matched my experiences and understanding of the world…
I adapted my values to match what I experienced and saw in the world…
the disconnect people feel in the world is because their childhood
indoctrinations don’t match the reality, the experience they find
in the world…the disconnect is between their childhood indoctrinations
and the reality on the ground… but they don’t reexamine their values
because that forces them to admit that, possibly, their understanding
of the world is wrong… and we hate to admit we are wrong…
that is human nature…
Kropotkin