I am a philosopher…
I am supposed to seek the truth…
but I don’t…
I commit blasphemy in the philosophical circles by not
seeking the truth at all cost…
What truth? Whose truth?
I cannot say…
is my truth more “real” then your truth?
I cannot say…
is my truth, more true, then your truth?
I cannot say……
I cannot even say what the word “truth” means…
for I don’t know……
I cannot even say what reality we are trying to describe…
for I don’t know…
I cannot say what the word “understanding” means…
for I don’t know…
for I am ignorant of such matters…
I cannot tell you what is real or true or even understand such things…
I can only ask questions about what they mean…
I have been misinformed about such things… from childhood…
my childhood indoctrinations from the state and society and church and media…
they lied as to what is real and what is true and what is understanding…
the purpose of those indoctrinations weren’t to inform or allow understanding…
no, those indoctrinations were meant to get me to obey…nothing more…
to be a “good” citizen, to be a “good” Christian, to be a “good” Patriot…
and by “good” that means only one thing… to obey, to follow the rules…
what is the great crime of modern society?
Insubordination…….
to prevent the crimes that bedevil societies…
defiance, dissension, rebellion, revolt, revolution, noncompliance…
these criminal acts, all of them……
and what do these criminal acts have to do with “TRUTH”?
For the question becomes, who decides what is the “TRUTH”?
Society, the state demands to be the only arbiter of what is the “TRUTH”…
If I as an individual decide the “TRUTH” for myself, I am a criminal…
for I dare to subvert the power of the state by declaring the truth is
outside of the control, the domination of the state…
but I cannot tell you what is the “TRUTH”…
but to search for the truth outside of the state’s indoctrinations
is to commit the cardinal sin of insubordination………….
I am a heretic because I don’t subscribe to the state’s indoctrinations…
and so I am labeled, radical, liberal, socialist, communist, anarchist,
and why?
because I seek the “TRUTH” outside of the state’s sanction indoctrinations…
and what are the state sanction indoctrinations?
Money, Patriotism, profits, martial, materialism, religious, obedience…
all the phony idols, we American’s bow down and pray to……
I oppose each and every one of these sacred tenets of America…
instead of praying to the state’s indoctrinations…
I seek values worth living for, worth dying for…
values like love, peace, hope, justice, charity…
Un-American values because there is no profits in those values…
and profits are the real religion in America today…
all bow down and pray to the holy ghost of profits…
bow down and pray to Mammon… our real heavenly father…
I shall not bend the knee to such false and nihilistic values…
and what is the “TRUTH”?
Kropotkin