Stole her heart like a burglar
I know I fucked up n hurt her
Now she left me here sitting alone
Don’t blame her, was a dysfunctional home
But I love her I love her, don’t want any other
I really never wanted her to feel any sufferin
Told her when she left we can start fresh again
Walk a new path, not where we already been
“No, i can’t right now love, I gotta grow, so
Don’t wait up for me, n I know you would, just don’t please, just leave for me, see you have done enough damage, yelling and treating me bad, it can’t be fixed with any type of bandage
you need to learn more, like how to manage
Your anger and anxiety, you seek attention
Through notoriety and negative adrenaline
I know you get it, why do I say it again n again”
Have you ever been so low?
Where if death beckoned you, you willingly go?
Like your last breath wouldn’t be too bad
What is worse than people making you feel mad?
When you’re the us and they’re the them
And it Brings you around the edge again
Maybe I really should dig a hole
Doesn’t everyone need some type of goal?
I try to stay positive but that’s just a game
Of cat and mouse and going insane
And to be real, war is an insane game, yet unavoidable, at certain point to lash out, before destroying your own, where the game becomes the goal to transpire, where hunters will become hunted .and may expire.
I have had more time to think, than I have had to do and that it seems is the underlying issue
So Does the spark in a man’s eye always die?
Even when you mark the truth and try not to lie?
Am I smart or wise? When I feel I have lost my personality and mind?
like the rainbow in me is only shading and not different colors anymore, am I still fine?
The trees are supposed to be green but they seem grey before their time
Did I peak at too much behind the door?
Did I chase too far in my desire for lore?
Does the spark stay dead forever more, or?
Picking up the fragile pieces
that you left behind
Do tell, Don’t you see?
The Broken glass surrounding me
I think I am almost out of time,
While they dance in fire like it’s the prize
And They all still look just fine to me
They all look just fine
Lifted vision
as high as eyes can see
To lock thy gaze,
upon the ghoul
I have no answers for you here
Don’t you see,
I’m just a fool?
Another attempt
To tame the soul
Before I end up
A lifeless ghoul
Another attempt
To make it through
To the end,
I hope we do
It’s done me no favors
Again and again
I’m not sure hope
in the end,
Can bring me back
Around the bend
To find myself
Waiting there
Like a vampire sulking
in its lair
Eternal life is
eternal despair
For the pain is always
Waiting there