Man, you must be the queen of reading too much into things. I’ve seen her twice so far. You should know I have way more goals than just staying sober. Is it really that inconceivable to you that a man could have more goals than just staying sober and relies on a therapist to help him see those goals through? ← Automatically that’s attachment???
Possibly… but I’m not counting on that.
I think for astral projection, that for sure isn’t going to just fall into my lap without at least adding meditation practices to my toolkit. Tons of people exist who have never touch a drop of alcohol or snorted any kind of drug and haven’t magically been swept up by an AP experience (if anything, it’s the other way around).
(And my therapist specifically is trained in meditative exercises, hypnosis, and altered states of consciousness… which is why I chose her.)
What I said was that after July 1 I’d probably not post here anymore (because I usually like to post when I’m on caffeine), but I never said I didn’t want anyone posting in this thread. I wouldn’t say something like that… ever… except maybe to you. And it wasn’t this thread specifically, but ILP in general. What I said about the PMs was that I’d probably PM a few people just to let them know where I’m at. I also said I’d continue to post on threads that were ongoing projects (like my Rick and Morty thread… although I barely find the time for that), and that I’d continue to respond to posts directed at me (usually, sometimes). I’m not ignoring people, just hard to muster the motivation without some kind of stimulant like caffeine.
None of this is a commitment though… if I ever succeed in my goal of feeling caffeinated on the natch (and I have the time), of course I’ll post here more often!
So you think I will lead them one day?! WOW!!! And I thought you had no faith in me!
Are you quite sure that you do not See Things in that way ~ in other words “to lead them”? Really? I would think that putting one’s self within the AA environment would be or could be a great learning experience about what makes you tick and how you got to the place where you are. You are all individuals and unique in your ways but alcoholics do have some things in common.
You are relentless, Arc.
If I went to AA on a casual basis… just once in a while… you would never be satisfied.
I am going to go out on a limb here and allow you to shoot me down You love it. but my intuition is that you are still not serious about becoming and staying sober but my intuition has been known to be faulty I’ll say. and in this case I would happily hope that it is.
No you wouldn’t. Denial seems to be a thing for you.
I wonder how many alcoholics trying to be sober actually hang out in bars. Proly not a lot, but I’m special. I just do not get that. No kidding. I think that one’s sobriety needs to be most important - much more important than the woman bartender or is it just a woman who hangs out there and thinks that you are cute (as you once related). I did? Would you trade your sobriety for a woman’s comforting opinion of you?
Come on, Arc. I’ve got way more self-respect than that. No one believes me when I say I can go to the bar and not have the urge to drink. It’s like I’ve got supernatural powers or something. The bartenders there (guys and girls) know that I don’t drink, and I doubt even if I had the urge to drink and I caved one day, asking for a drink, that they wouldn’t at least ask me: “Are you sure?” I go out because I don’t want to give up all the other pleasures of life, the pleasures I used to enjoy while getting drunk. My intention really is to walk that fine line between the unhealthy pleasures in life and the healthy pleasures. I’m not giving up a single once of the latter. It beats being cooped up at home. I get bored. I bring my work to the bar (yes, I’m that nerdy!). I setup my laptop right at the bar and do work while drinking a virgin Caesar and an appetizer. There’s just something more stimulating about being in a public place and getting to chat a bit with the bartenders (the cute ones especially). I’m reeeally not worried about risking my sobriety. You have to be me to understand. I’m really not at risk. If I were you, I wouldn’t waste brain cells trying to comprehend it. Better off not believing me.