.I want to start over. But more clearly.
You are implying a lot of things, and they are not clear because they are conflated. When reading Your words, initially, in was tempted to conclude this, but not that, because your meaning is not explicit.
And my understanding is neither, maybe because the level of communication does not meet at some standard variation, I don’t really know.
At any rate, I encourage you to continue with this piece, and although it’s disjointed and notnessentially thematic, there are some impoerant thematic issues not evident, that you may want to work on, even if, perhaps, they are not evident to you as a conscious stream. Perhaps they are overlooked , missing, who h you could perhaps incorporate .
At any rate I am expressing this, because I’m faced with similar blocks to my own sense of wanting to continue.
PS
I do seem to have done a lot of writing in this forum lately, just an illustration of the opposite effect of a block, as it may pertain to You, its not that I have an insatiability for torrents of expression , but sort of an urgency , a need for it.
That is if anyone finds it objectionable. And I’m placing this into here , maybe with a hidden sense of trying to help in some way to unblock Your energy.