I am nothing but crap. A few years life expectancy in a system many billions of years old.
My society is crashing and burning. I have only a tiny amount of causal energy and influence.
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I am a rare one-of-a-kind being. I am special, and important.
In honor of this, i will try to perfect and transmute myself to an evolved state.
I will make a positive impression on my life and the lives to come after this.
[[ i hope this isn’t offensive terms. well, i tried. ]]
I was due for a sinus operation four days before Christmas day. Four days before I was due to check in my insurance company insisted I get a quote from the anaesthetist. My ENT surgeons said I would be contacted by the anaesthetist so far nothing. I called the hospital to be told they had scant info on me and that I had no private insurance. WTF. I have private insurance. Now I am getting really nervous. The hospital office said I had to call the surgeon’s office (see how messy this is getting) and find out what is going on. I did this only to be told by them they had supplied all my info to the hospital.
That’s it!
Cancel the surgery, everyone is too busy concentrating on their Christmas parties.
I told the surgeon’s office to cancel and reschedule for the end of January and book into another hospital, which I hope she did.
Then I get a call from his office saying he wants to see me. He wants to make sure I have confidence in him. WTF again. Am I supposed to pay $200 for a visit to tell him I have confidence in him.
Do not worry about it. Just pick up a little piece of it (your mind) at a time. Sprinkle a bit of awareness wherever it is pointing to ~~ like you would a broken mirror. A piece or fragment of a broken mirror can be aware of a bit of reality. Little tiny bits of mindfulness will eventually gather together and re-create your mind. It shall be made whole again.
It is like a little dance of meditation…step by step.
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Thinking about how you never drink the water in Mexico, or the juice, or any sodas. Just bring your own bottles of water, or get evian or fiji or finlandia or voss. Something from a known source. Besides that just drink tequila, but not on the resorts, get that shit in a bottle sealed at a store and don’t buy any off brands.