He learned quick and fast, he cut off this and that memory and played here and there in the casino loosing everything and some and kept on loosing even his soul remembering it as a terrible thing to loose, and then he lost that too, his lostness for ever also was lost ,taken by the wind, and he became as a little child, and silly too, and lost that and all memory ,and then he learned how to partition ,semblance and fear, because at that moment he knew the value of last night’s masks, that he has to wear one and anybody says they dont, they are deceiving themselves.
Igor knew that not wearing a mask is wearing a not wearing mask, proclamations of look here I’m not wearing one can you see underneath see my soul underneath ? I’m glad you can cause I’m dependent on you to describe it to me for the mirror will lie you see even if you dare to look into it
Didn’t kozinsku of the painted bird answer so quizzically to his barber when asked why he is not looking into the mirror?
Why? Because I know already well , what I can see in it That whole bunch of Polish intellectuals best typified by the image of something hidden,evil, as his friend the film maker Polanski ,whose lovely wife Sharon Tate was so brutally butchered by murder Manson inc, to web this into its formidable darkness, a darkness of such gravity that defies imagination.
Don’t feel bad Igor loosing, think, think of this unfortunate guy, who on his Queen Mary trip , became entangled in a Poker game not to forget
Went like this: He was newly married their honeymoon and kept loosing and after he lost everything , he put his house deed on the table and then loosing that he could not double down, and the only thing he had left was his wife and he bet her cause his opponent coveted her and lost again, and jumped out into the frothing see?
And Igor stopped and waited by the coffin where Dracule slept by day, and yawned for it was damp and cold and dark there
Not a happy story but true
Moral-have to loose a lot to become A Philosopber. And he shot the 8 ball into the side pocket.