You make the accusation that others are not open to new thinking in regard to the existence of God. Okay, how is that not applicable to you in turn? How have your views changed over the years?
And, to the extent that you are able, make a distinction between your philosophical/theological assumptions and the actual experiences that you had that nudged you existentially in different directions over time.
Every time that I write something, you respond that you don’t know how it addresses your points or you don’t understand what I am saying. I have no idea what you want or expect from me. That much I will admit.
Cite particular instances of this.
And, here and now, note the evolution of your thinking [and repeated rethinking] about God and I will respond to it.
Let others judge for themselves the extent to which you have eschewed the “same stock phrases” in addressing this subject.
Who have you listened to in the past — folks able to reconfigure your thinking?
I can name at least a half dozen men and women [in particular circumstances] who had a profound impact on my own thinking.
And my thinking has indeed evolved dramatically over the years. As you recall, I was once myself a devout Christian and a Unitarian.