You obviously don’t know what you’re talking about. I have never preached about immortality. I don’t believe in it. And because you are ignorant of what should be a very obvious fact, that only indicates to me that you have know idea what I’m talking about too.
Nihilism is socialistic and based in herd instincts, to bury your head in the sand, or to immerse yourself in society. Even your compulsions are socialistic as you have admitted such with your weakness toward women. You’re not an individualist because you don’t understand morality and self-responsibility. You don’t know how to live separately from society or others.
Somebody who is strongly self-responsible, rejects victim mentality, cannot be a nihilist. Because such a person confronts reality and attempts to recognize causes of life and existence, to take account for it all. Intelligence leads to morality, to know that people act and cause events in such a way as to affect others and everything else. Nihilism is a denial of morality and accountability.
Nihilists are irresponsible, immature, naive, and ignorant. As I mentioned a moment ago, a Nihilist cannot “see beyond yourself”. You’re selfish, and lacking empathy. Just because your life has no meaning, doesn’t mean that other peoples’ lives have no meaning. Because some do. Some people have more meaning, or are worth more than others.
This is obviously true when people prefer their own kin, kind, family before others, and would choose one person to live over another, if forced to choose.
Therefore life is not nihilistic. Nihilism is a minority ideology and ranges in degree. People speak nihilistic ideals, but, act in different ways.
For example, there’s a Christian who claims “there is an afterlife/heaven/hell” but yet hesitates in dangerous situations. How can Christians who believe in afterlife hesitate, with fear, from jumping off cliffs while they believe in an afterlife?
Because beliefs can be lies. And they are lies in such they contradict the actions and behaviors.
This is why Nihilism is, overall, an irrational ideology. People claim to believe in this or that, like “god”, but when put to the test, they show their true colors. People are still animals, acting on instincts. The word-play, the memetic factor, the “I believe in god”, can all be bullshit, and it mostly is. Just a pile of lies.
Nihlists contribute to the cesspool, adding to the manure pile. Nihilism relies on emotionalism and victimization. “I’m a victim, my life has no meaning, help meeee!!!”