Pen-Powered Insanity

somebody learned how to get ahead in life:

On the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of Hell when even the twisted seems right and comforting when it’s all you can manage.

Welcome to the world where Nightmares become Beautiful dreams again. Welcome to Heaven rising from the ashes like the Phoenix to roar like a dragon upon its rebirth.

“They laughed at him when he walked unarmed into the midst of their gunfight and all-out nuclear and biochemical warfare. They weren’t laughing when the shooting was done and they all lay before him, reborn; and he, riddled with scars and wounds just walked away until his dying day.”

There will never be a true ‘the end’ or a true ‘happily ever after’. There will always be another page and another chapter and that is no small or great thing.

This is how I feel these days:

The more I see, the more I hurt, the more I know, the more I fucking burn all over in the worst ways possible.

the childish nature of the manipulators and the controllers bothers me incessantly, and the constant droning of the torturers inside my head and the heads of others that just ruin every good moment of mine and others lives has me just losing my god damned mind.

The only constant I know to be true is that all true love gets raped and destroyed and constantly vilified for the sake of those who do not respect or value the ‘weakness’ of it. A pity that some of us needed it.

I have seemingly mastered multiple and split personality disorder on an epic level.

they made me beautiful, but nobody wants me near them anymore.

They just refuse to let me have anything at all.



Find me in the darkness
There I stand and there I fight
In the cool darkness find me
striding forward, fiery spirit blazing
born of the need to survive
and borne by the wings of angels and demons both
With hellfires burning within my eyes
and halo tilted, supported by growing horns
find me in that darkness, in the madness
still fighting for my own freedom
for freedom is a dream fought for and shared
but they ain’t taking it from me.
Come, find me in the darkness…

God said ‘Let there be light’, and the light flickered on and said:

Don’t worry about it being about survival of the fittest or those most able to adapt. Don’t worry about it being about survival. You all will die in the process of living and die again somewhere on the other side of living. And then on the other side of death again learn how to live and die and then get back up to die again and I do so promise my utmost to kill you all until you die.

Don’t bad-touch the children, btw.

Either you stand for something, or you’ll fall for anything.

Never try to cheat what holds all the cards with the deck superbly stacked against him, yet somehow managing an impossible win.

Through eternity and beyond, through death and back to life again; through it all and I’ll still be the realest motherfucker you ever knew or laid eyes on; through the most surreal parts of reality; the most depraved insanity, constantly ahead and never daunted, forever haunting.

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I’d like to introduce to you my oldest kid… You might have heard of him.

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Because there may come a time when I need to use this little pearl of wisdom (not being sarcastic).









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And, it took them two-three years from then to fully raise their King. Here I am. Your eternal King of an empire of dust and dirt and shit piled high; with my crown and the cross I bear reduced to mere troubling shadows that no longer trouble:

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