My youngest son attempted suicide and succeeded
I have been very depressed since then, but could not think of taking my life.
Why? Because I have others to care for, and also consider the sanctity of life.
And lastly, because my dread of death still can be overcome by the first 2 above.
I wrote something today, just for you guys… then I cut the text from here and inserted it into my website, link below:
djedefsauron.net/index.php?o … Itemid=125
So, as I was saying there:
Time for the “analysts” to explore nonlinear writings like mine, and drop their “statistical” “proofs” of recycled, uninspired, and frankly ludicrous theories… and their coffee/tobacco/alcohol…
(feel free to pick up a pure weed joint*, though)…
Importantly…
I’d love it if you all take this test …
16personalities.com/free-personality-test
And post your results…
I’m a “diplomat”, by the way…
I’m an exception here, most people who hang out in online forums are “analysts” addicted to debate for its own sake… i for one mostly dislike debating, i’m a serial monologuist who visits because I have something unique, important to say…
Nice… I too am a diplomat, mediator.
(Just noticed…
Your hands are tied, Wendy darling??)
All 16 types are likeable when you understand them and why they evolved so.
Even Analysts are likeable to me, though that requires a bit more effort from my side.
Though at times I feel more like “diplomat, Advocate” or “diplomat, Protagonist”…
Ultimately, it’s my destiny to be a Protagonist…
btw, I found an epic poem:
youtube.com/watch?v=plgg9sSLRvQ
but I could have written better lyrics… this makes him seem like too much of a tyrant! I love the concept of Ra… en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ra
in particular, see:
“I am the New World Order to come, I am the first* and the last**”
Well, of course, an Italian Triarii Elite (King of Heaven and Earth) will be expected to sing that…
But I like more the concept of supercharged-Ra, that is, THIRD SUN [SUN OF THE SKY], the first [Sia] and the last [Hu] being merely the 2 main pillars that support Ra…
The King of Heaven, Earth, and Hell…
That is the truest form of Ra… not just Emperor and demigod, but a God on earth, a consummated philosopher-king…
MagsJ, regardless of any test results, you are very far from anything associated with “architect”.
Anand,
Your writing style…nice. You I get, but the analytical will bring their wrath upon you for your flagrant indulgences in light-heartedness light of their rigmarole of hard evidence.
Am I the only one to find that “unsettling?” Must be a guy thing.
Heartstrings are binding.
Then do tell what (you think) I am?
There are rules against that.
I was just noting what you are NOT.
I see a deja-vu happening all over again… please don’t hound and troll me like Turd did over this very same issue… in revenge for whatever he felt vengeful about.
Let me rephrase my question then… so why do you think I am not? and why do you care to comment on me (and nobody else) in the first place?
Wendy Darling,
Good advice, yeah the analytic-dominated print world will misunderstand me and take offense, but I still tend to come across naturally, just as I always have… due to force of habit (or personality).
As long as the few like you understand, I really haven’t cared much if most do not, but that’s just laziness, only starting to work on delivery, not easy for someone as nonlinear as me…
Heartstrings are binding…
I think i get it…
I’m OK as long as you’re optimally free.
Can’t just have a mental image of a damsel in distress without finding out more, you know…
Fall in love without much (if any) provocation…
Just thinking of a Sophia-like figure makes me literally (and biochemically) more of a “philosopher” (Philo-sophia… hah!)
Maybe we meet when i come to Eastern Europe next month…
Anyway…
I advocate a philosophically consummated Ra (a stable Third Sun), the upholder of objective logic with a global mandate… king of all 3 realms (heaven, hell, earth), not necessarily the typical 2-pronged one (king of heaven and earth)…
Dunno why Triarii says “Kneel down for me”, “New world order”… etc., I don’t agree. Possibly because the Third Sun went kaput long ago, now staffed by weak and ill-advised Sun-Black Sun coalitions (as in the pope-antipope bloc in Italy)…
As for historic Rome…
I find some of its syndromes (specifically war and bipolaristic power (leading to ultimately meaningless and impotent tendencies as in Mussolinite fascism)) as unsettling as you…
Rome was no Third Sun Empire, though one of the later emperors (or was it a key General?) did “worship” a concept of 3 suns (read about that long back didn’t realize the importance of it, then… sadly forgot his name… can anyone help with this?)
MagsJ is certainly an architect in the sense of moderation - she knows how things fall into place.
Architecture isn’t as simple as you think it is, James - my point all along.
Mental illness … always a condition of society, or of family or of whatever type of irrational resistances to power a human environment has. Mental illness does not occur in the wild. Rather, it is a beings escape into the wild from the insane conditions of humanity.
Agreed, domestication is the problem…
Though you seem to be ascribing more weight to “power” than is warranted.
To me the only valid power is the power to defend (by offense, if required) the efficiently-resource-exploiting people of logic against the vulgar attacks opportunistically mounted by the inefficiently-resource-exploiting people of absurdity.
The latter are rightly called “barbarians” or “peasants” and hated by the evolved thinkers of in fact, all lands. I myself come from India though I admit that here, traditionally at least if not so much today, barbarians often had their way.
Things are usually better here than in France or Italy, however… thinkers are not troubled.
PS: Geographically, the general extent of thinkers’ hardship, which characterizes overly barbarian cultures, is roughly proportional to the contours of this graph:
I never knew mental illness could be so noble as to be an antidote for social ills. 
Excepting for those bereft of any other way to try to manipulate the bad cards dealt them. Or if that doesent work, convergence to Munchausen.
I am firm but fair. Have you seen the updated forum warning system? a system that works for everyone 
James was pulling ‘a Turd’ on me… I nearly fell for it, but quickly knew that that rhetoric was not James’s style one bit… even though he played it straight till the end. 
I wonder what you’re poker face looks like James? 
Well, it will be, in this case, the atypical type of “illness” (the opposite typical would be, depression, dementia progression etc. i.e. neuropyrosis)
Probably a legitimate behavioral style pathologized and branded an “illness” by the mainstream illogicians (who are so given to fulsomely spinning academicistic prose to “prove” themselves wise, e.g.: the idea that “gray matter” equals intelligence, whereas the fact is that increased gray matter, though indeed it may lead to situations where one can “win” over others who had by mistake assumed the former their friend, – merely corresponds to increased risk of neuropyrosis*.
Thus we have defined in this post a typical form of mental illness, and a pseudo-illness, which is actually a raw nonlinear thinking intelligence corresponding to talent of logical articulation & high IQ (the traditional form of IQ, not the MENSA meta-verbal “speed test” style pseudo-IQ propagated by fool quack misassociations like the DSM5)… often misunderstood and publicly underplayed by the elites, but the best girls love it ))
According to my counselor, some major executives are using mild doses of “magic mushroom” and “ecstasy” to enhance their work performances.
