I’m done with giving up; with goin back
to places of my mind colored black
tired of failing to do; what I want to do
so sick of giving up on myself
I hope you understand why
I could never ask for help
Nobody could ever help me
in the way I needed
The help I got was not helpful
though I appreciate the intent
This is where I set my feet down
Where I pit them and push back
This is where I make my stand
and start moving forward with a life
that I’ve slacked off on for far too long
and I’ve heard that strife
is just a passing song
My eyes; opened again
and I see a lot of things I thought
that I already saw
and I can calculate the odds
that the same is going to happen again
Fuck all of you who said I’d never make it
Haters can hate all they want
But I’ve accomplished what I’ve set out to accomplish
I did what people said couldn’t be done
so, all of your words only do so much
now sit back and watch as I take off
cause this what I’ve been waiting for
what I’ve been building up to
and everything I do from here on out
will only prove to show you
all the things that make you
jealous
When I was a kid, I drew pictures of god with a penis and two titts
And so they thought I was quite disturbed
Confusing their savior for a hermaphrodite
but, I never thought to set them straight
God is both sexes as they themselves said
So now they have me taking these pills
Pills upon pills upon pills upon pills
Where were you when my blood began to spill
Spurting and gushing, my bedroom walls it was painting
All I remember is a feeling of falling and fainting
Maybe it was the acid that did it
Maybe it was just the lsd in it
A hallucination of epic proportion
It’s these god damned drugs, doctor idiot
Ever since they misdiagnosed me as a kid
They thought I was disturbed back then
Well take a look now at what’s inside my head
Demons bouncing back and forth through thick and thin
Going crazy as if they just had their feast of blood
And it all swirls down as thick as mud
Pills upon pills upon pills upon pills
You crazy little quack, I’ma laugh as your blood spills
They call me special and I blame the drugs
They say I’m strange, I say it’s the drugs
The DRUGS, the DRUGS, the DRUGS
A killing spree across the states
Caused by my drug-induced haze
All because one day when I was a kid
I decided to draw God with titts and a dick
And I showed it to people I thought would understand
Religion comes with a high demand
Pills upon pills upon pills upon pills
Quack, quack, quack, a doctor’s malpractice bills
It’s THE DRUGS, DRUGS, and these PILLS
I’m special and strange and they blame the drugs
I’m psychotic and deranged and I hang out with thugs
And it’s all because of these pills, these drugs
Across the expanse of land, their two hearts met
At first, not sure, almost hesitant
And then realizing love, they leapt with joy
A love so true that time or distance could not destroy
Across the expanse of land, their two hands met
Clasping one another, if only in imagination
And realizing love, they squeezed each other
A love so pure that it could never smother
Across the expanse of land, their bodies met
A mixture of sweet and musky scent
And then realizing love, they intertwined
A love so real as to destroy all lines
Across the expanse of land, he said to her
I love you, with all of my heart, forever
And then realizing love, she softly said it back to him
A love so everything, it denies explanation