A central question of my philosophy, one I struggle with on a daily basis is "Am I reading the text or is the text reading me?"
That's an interesting way of expressing it. If I understand what you mean by the latter,
I think that you are probably more ahead of the game then many of us are. I would say that you are already conscious of the fact that as you read, you may be at certain times already forming an opinion or have a personal opinion or bias as to what you are reading and that may be influencing you in what you seem
to feel is a more positive way (you automatically agree with what you read) or a negative one, where you automatically disagree with what you read ~~ again, if that is basically what you mean by "reading me".
It's not an easy thing for many to withhold judgment on whether the writer is right or wrong by simply reading the text in a detached way and doing the real "thinking" about it later on. We "go into" books or texts with our own pre-conceived ideas even though what we actually wish for, hope for, is to see another's point of view, another way of thinking, another theory or hypothesis and to gain more knowledge than we've had before.
This is the way the human mind works. It needs to be slowed down a bit so we can better understand what it is the writer is trying to say instead of imagining what we believe he is trying to say.
Does this make sense?
Yes, it does because I am aware of my own propensity to get ahead of myself and to allow my own thoughts and opinions to at times rise up and influence me in the journey of my reading - instead of simply reading without "knowing" where the author is going or wants to go...
Of course, that doesn't mean that we don't reflect on what we read ~ later on or as we go on- but without pre-judgment.
Am I wrong?