And they said...

And they said that you will never be the same again…
And I heard them the first time…
And yet they said it again… and again… and again, until I looked at them full on…
And now I know why they said it so much.

I didn’t do the things they expected… like the others had…
I didn’t live up to the disappointments that they thought I would do…
But now… I just… cannot…
I simply can’t.

Days turn into nights, and nights into days…
Reality merges with dreams, and become one…
That house and skyscraper still exist in my mind…

I like this.

Ambition behind it.

Ii don’t like that final line… I will add to it.

Not ambition… its the expected outcome of a person’s reactions and life after a specific event.

Didnt mean it is about ambition.
It is palpable behind it. Opposite of fatalism.

I see… yes… sometimes a different outcome is totally unexpected, and it was in this case… a car crash waiting to happen was what was expected after the event. Such faith they had.

The last line is not forthcoming in its apparency… omitted for now.

Confused, but not dazed
Is this how we are to spend our days
Not dazed, but just confused… not phased.

Subscribing to expectations yields results
But I don’t mix with cunts
So onwards with your hunts.

And they said…

And I said… You can say it all you want, and keep saying it
but that time has now come to pass, so what say you now?

We know what we don’t want, so that leaves what we can want
so we are left wanting…

Thursday’s event finally eclipsed that of 1997 from my mind
Fleeting or linger… right now it is at the forefront of my mind
Intentional, or superseding the old memory?
Nothing has until this/until now, so supersede away.

No predictions were given after this point, so perhaps there were none to give
Perhaps a 360 is arrived at, and I come out of it relatively unscathed, but now phased.