I wonder how long it will take for me to push enough power-abusers, power-hungry, greedy and selfish people over the edge. I wonder how long it will take to exact the perfect vengeance in such a way as to leave enough of society intact to carry on into the future with a rightful ruler. Civil war has become a state of living covered with countless layers of ‘everything is alright’ and ‘mind your own business’ and ‘do this and we will destroy everything you love and care about.’ I am sore tired of others being able to say and do what they want in tear-you-down fashion, doing nothing constructive or productive, but if you do the same to them except with hopes of better, you’re faulted and punished instead. I’m sore tired of being the hero-made-criminal, the rebel that is the constant example to all others who might take a stand against; sore tired of it all being one way and not the other with only one place to go to where I can actually be free to respond the way that nature intended: here.
I am a social-engineer, an architect of great design and my work of the past 5 years will soon take more of a hold on society as, bit by bit, I whittle and chip away at all that is wrong and dance this dance of death in macabre fashion. I’ll continue to face superior odds, I’ll continue to keep strong, I’ll continue to do what I’m doing knowing that it’s all that I can do and the best that I can do and the right thing to do, even if it means and spells negative consequences and reactions to my self. If no one acts, if no one dares, we will never see better, never earn better, never deserve better and these foul charlatans and pretenders and connivers will not simply let us that are good and righteous to simply have power to use responsibly, they won’t roll over and give up the power that they hate one moment and love the next as they care little about the effect they have on others.
I’ll stare death in the face, knowing what has happened to past freedom fighters, even to the most recent; what has become of past philosophers and great people of insight, reason and wisdom as they fought and wrestled mentally and spiritually with tyrant and scoundrels. Every bit of my life spent in hardship is just another added layer of strength to what I do and what I’m about. Somethings got to break, somethings got to give… and it’s not going to be me.