Damn, bold text, increased the size and underlined it, all caps… Thats easily 3 years on Devil’s Island. Six years if he color coded it red.
We can’t just let people run about, changing font parameters like that, what kind of society would we be if we condoned such things?
Idiot, for your sake, don’t start misspelling too, you can land yourself in solitary, no light… just bread and cockroaches…
He did make proper use of commas and semicolons. Impressive for a rant. Does one still require the use of a exclamation point ! in such a exposition, or is it obviously implied?
I laughed when I read this. It was charming in a positive way - sorry, felt I had to be redundant to be clear this is a compliment. I forget sometimes how despite everything you are (also?) an incredible optimist. I think I took your long exchange as something akin to OCD, but I now see you likely held out a small chance the dialogue would loosen and something positive would happen. You are more of an optimist than me and I think this might explain some of our differing reactions to things. Not all of them, of course, but some of them. It gives your posts a different mood to me.
I was. I had a very big release of serotonin earlier. I have a feeling that it will resume normal flow as it should from this point on. I am calm for the first time in my life; truly calm. I know my self. You all have watched the transformation before your eyes, how a person can struggle with the insanities of mankind and overcome them. This is the first time in my life that I have truly been without doubt. For a long time, I had to make use of my dopamine and noradrenaline as they were to get my reward centers working. For an even longer time, all I had were the adverse effects in my life.
In all intents and purposes, I have done the impossible and i have provided proof to show the world as I did it; throughout my time here on the internet; and I intent to keep going for as long as I live. It has truly been an honor chatting with you, CN; I knew you were gauging me the entire time as you kept your distance a bit and watched. I was actually interested in hearing what you had to say about it; but I’m glad you waited until now to do so.
I was literally in a fight for my life against impossible odds; in my head; for survival. That is how bad mankind is getting in spots due to what’s been going on. My voice had to be heard. It had to be felt. It had to be real. It was worth it.
I am in control of myself and respect that they are also in control of themselves. I am not in control of the larger picture, though through my reactions of being in control of myself, I can control much more than that; I can control the hearts of others. It had to be earned, though; so it could never be abused. Such has been the fight against evil and the devil as they seek to take that power and corrupt it; those inferior parts of our selves.
It is a matter of knowing that I control absolutely nothing that gives me the freedom to move about and do what I do. All I can do is respond the best I can and continue to learn as I go and there was where I began to place all my confidence; shifting it from other aspects by a system of counter-balances I devised from inspiration I received one day. I think I wrote a poem about it.
It’s also a matter of knowing I’m not alone. I’m not the only one who feels these things; the things I saw in movies and read in books weren’t false; the fantasies of children weren’t idle imaginings though the embellishments might have been. That is enough for me even if they ban me. I am willing to accept that at this point. Even if I were to die tomorrow or live another hundred years, I could rest on this accomplishment and have it amplify in magnitude as I continue to grow into it and die content from what I had already done. I am on the path I want to be on and always was; it was just a fight to realize it and now I know the fight full well to the point where I no longer need to fight it. I own it, because I understand it, because it is me.
Upon consideration, I don’t want Idioms permanently banned.
However, if the mods do not respond to this thread and allow someone to make death threats (Which are illegal), without any condemnation of the act, then I will lose respect for the integrity of their philosophy.
If a person can’t question another, without having their life threatened - the foundation for any reasonable discussion, is off the table.
We ought be held to account for our mistakes, so we learn the wisdom of how and why not to repeat them.
Idioms broke the law, and ought be held to account. It is in his long term interest, to be confronted by his own anger, and treatment of others.
Many on this forum are attacking my credibility, when I’ve offered clear evidence of what Idioms did.
Regardless of who I am, Idioms should be held to account.
I ask that the mods, primarily Carleas, has the decency to respond to this.
I come here because I like to think about myself and the world that I live in. The part where the two intersect. And a lot more than folks who don’t come into places like this do. I have come to see it in a particular way. As a nihilist. Just as you have come to see it as you do. If only always “here and now”. But then we bump into folks who think about it in ways that are very, very, very different from the way we do.
We try to explain to them the way we think about it because we really are convinced that this is the most reasonable manner in which to think about it. But they don’t or won’t come around. Then we react to that. And some can become quite enraged when, after repeatedly explaining to others how they think about it, others still don’t “get it”. How could they not when it is all so fucking clear?!
Then we have spectacles like KTS vs. ILP, the pontificating Kids, the sterile objectivists and, well, death threats.
And threads like this.
I can’t help but be fascinated in wondering what it must be like inside the heads of, well, some of them. To think in a way that seems [to me] so alien. Even surreal. But then [of course] dasein [and its dilemma] kicks in and I recognize just how futile it will be trying to figure that out. Then I have to settle for the part about it all being “entertaining”.
But, sure, maybe some day I really will understand them. And maybe some day they will really understand me.
I will not report this, as I don’t believe the threats to be serious, nor do I believe this request to be made in a good faith apprehension of imminent harm. Idiotic doesn’t know who you are or where you live. Even if he were angry enough to kill, he doesn’t know your name much less your location, and there’s reason to believe he’s about as far from you as one human can get from another on the surface of the earth. And neither the words “I’m going to kill you,” nor various embellishments on them, are enough by themselves to constitute a death threat.
You are, of course, welcome to report them yourself if you disagree.
Idiotic, don’t threaten people with violence or otherwise. It’s definitely a warnable and/or bannable offense, it’s not philosophy and does nothing for your position nor to change anyone’s mind, and it is neither cool nor funny. Block Ben and stop talking to him if you can’t keep your cool in response.
I understand. I never did those things because they were cool or funny. I did them because I was lost in myself and fighting for my life. I’ve won. I was always willing to face the consequences for my actions because it was worth doing so to unravel the thread and see the truth. I have no need to block Ben because I have no fear of ever losing my cool again. I have always known full well that those things speak against me and I struggled to overcome them even as I fought against the world around me as they struggled against the same things. I completely respect your words and the full weight of saying them.
I’m not trying to live a lie or anything like that. I have always valued authenticity over cheap crap. I respect your warning and I expect you to hold to it if it comes to it. It is why I am here and in this place instead of first trying to make a difference in the world around me. Here, I could learn the lessons without causing undue harm to any other person. There is no going back to ignorance, so I have not caused anything that would not have been otherwise. We all will be stuck in insecurity until such a time as we can all rise above it together.
I have only ever killed people in my thoughts and have only ever been killed in my thoughts; thus far. I see no reason to change that for any reason and there is no longer any need for me to kill people in my thoughts because try as they might, they will never be able to kill me again. You will find me earning trust in the long-term, so please watch and be vigilant and don’t let me be anything I don’t wish to be. For all of our sakes.
You’re crazy but in a good way. You accept Your split love hate relationship, that is why this whole thing is merely an exercise in farce. Have You ever lived under a real threat against Your very existence? Such farce does disservice to those to whom life has become a terror, and the suggestion to paranoids is , just because You are one, does not mean they are not out to get You. Meaningless, and irrelevant chatter, or a truly broken mind. I hope it’s the former. But if it’s the latter, do not worry, You are in good company.
