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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Tue Sep 06, 2016 7:40 pm

Before sicksadworld existed, ILP was all I had. It was my medicine, my escape from the cruel world around me where I could be free. When I was dungeonized in KT, it made me feel like a worthless loser, the worthless loser that I still am. But I still had ILP to keep me going on and not totally despair.


So I thank you for these boards and I thank you for never banning me, I would probably not be here today if you did.
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Postby Mictlantecuhtli » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:01 am

Awww shucks, keep your chin up kid. ;)
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:05 am

Thanks I will, as a matter of fact I have a mosquito bite on my chin right now.
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Postby Mictlantecuhtli » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:29 am

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:Thanks I will, as a matter of fact I have a mosquito bite on my chin right now.


Don't scratch it and make yourself bleed. We can't have you bleeding all over ILP.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:33 am

Blood, as a matter of fact, as well as the act of bleeding, sometimes feels good to me. I especially like the penetrative aspect, I stepped on a nail and it went right in the sweet spot.

The throbbing sensation is a bit like an energy surge, makes me feel well, energized.

All of the mosquitos in my town have West Nile, so I best let out all of the possibly infected blood.
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Postby Mictlantecuhtli » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:37 am

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:Blood, as a matter of fact, as well as the act of bleeding, sometimes feels good to me. I especially like the penetrative aspect, I stepped on a nail and it went right in the sweet spot.

The throbbing sensation is a bit like an energy surge, makes me feel well, energized.

All of the mosquitos in my town have West Nile, so I best let out all of the possibly infected blood.


If we don't hear from you in three days we'll know you died from West Nile. I would miss you.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:40 am

Thankyou. If I die I will put in a good word for you in the afterlife, and tell Ecmandu to not send you to hell.
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Postby Mictlantecuhtli » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:47 am

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:Thankyou. If I die I will put in a good word for you in the afterlife, and tell Ecmandu to not send you to hell.


I'm sure after you die you just become worm food but thanks anyways for the sentiment. ;)
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Wed Sep 07, 2016 5:50 am

HaHaHa wrote:
Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:Thankyou. If I die I will put in a good word for you in the afterlife, and tell Ecmandu to not send you to hell.


I'm sure after you die you just become worm food but thanks anyways for the sentiment. ;)


I had a dream that someone shot me to pieces and as I walked through the bullets I became only more powerful.
If my body dies my consciousness will go somewhere else, and I will refeminize again, and evolve even further. Death is the great feminizer, it causes childhood to happen, then the evolution of evolutions.
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Postby Meno_ » Thu Sep 08, 2016 5:13 am

THERE IS NO DEATH, ONLY YOU THINK SO, AND EVERYONE ELSE, ONLY A FEW REALLY KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON.

BUT NOW I'VE GOTTA GO AND FIX THIS BLOODY COMPUTER CAUSE IT ONLY WRITES CAPITALS.
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Postby Mictlantecuhtli » Thu Sep 08, 2016 5:59 am

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:
HaHaHa wrote:
Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:Thankyou. If I die I will put in a good word for you in the afterlife, and tell Ecmandu to not send you to hell.


I'm sure after you die you just become worm food but thanks anyways for the sentiment. ;)


I had a dream that someone shot me to pieces and as I walked through the bullets I became only more powerful.
If my body dies my consciousness will go somewhere else, and I will refeminize again, and evolve even further. Death is the great feminizer, it causes childhood to happen, then the evolution of evolutions.


I hope you never base real life upon dreams. The outcome will probably be contrary to what you're expecting.
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Postby Meno_ » Thu Sep 08, 2016 6:27 pm

Ha Ha,


'We are such stuff as dreams are made on'
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 6:30 pm

HaHaHa wrote:I hope you never base real life upon dreams. The outcome will probably be contrary to what you're expecting.


It usually is. That is why I don't expect any of my dreams to ever come true. What were discussing earlier, however, was a nightmare, so by all odds it should come true.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 6:31 pm

jerkey wrote:THERE IS NO DEATH, ONLY YOU THINK SO, AND EVERYONE ELSE, ONLY A FEW REALLY KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON.

BUT NOW I'VE GOTTA GO AND FIX THIS BLOODY COMPUTER CAUSE IT ONLY WRITES CAPITALS.


There is probably death for others. In an alternate dimension, I probably died while other's spectated. In this I didn't. Let me tell a dream I had.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 6:40 pm

I had a dream that I was bouncing around town in an office chair that I strapped a rocket underneath. I was rolling down the street almost running into cars and I decided to troll a guy's parked car, laughing hysterically as I boosted up and down with the seat.
Then two thugs walked up to me, gave me the vibe they were going to hurt me, then they pulled out a knife, and so I shot them. I shot one of them in the chest, and my jaw dropped because it seemed like it didn't hurt him very much. So I shot him in the head. He just shrugged it off. Then I unloaded a clip unto his friend, just shrugged it off. I knew I couldn't escape my fate. They beat me to death like a pathetic ragdoll and then stabbed me in the chest. Ambulance arrived a few minutes later, and next thing I know I was on the bed. I was outside of my body, looking at Trixie. Trixie's body kept struggling, and finally she got up out of bed. She refused to die.
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I came to and then I was directed by the police into the holding cell to identify the criminals who had stabbed me. It was Hannibal Lectre and Loki and they were suprised to see me. In the reflection I exactly looked like the Joker smiling like a hyena (my body was no longer trixie, but had transformed into the Joker). They were so suprised. They thought they were the only clowns in town with magical powers (they were shapeshifters). Then my mother rudely woke me up right in the middle of my dream to give me a ride to my job.
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Postby Meno_ » Thu Sep 08, 2016 7:12 pm

You may have been equally surprised to find your dream within another dream and that in another and so on. Did you ever have a dream you were falling, falling down a very precipitous height, sort of like in hitchcocks vertigo, and then you woke up only before you hit rock bottom? they say that if you hit rock bottom you would have passed on, but you never ever hit rock bottom, because if you did you would know you were dead, hit the ground, and then see yourself rising unto the realities beyond this.

But what of, like in your dream, you actually saw the killers stab you, rape you, disfigure you, and even metamorphosing into them? What if, that ground, was nothing else as the cause of the confusion, shared by Narcissus, who was severely punished for the confusion, which in fact is no confusion at all, but is the basic reality, that those awful killers were nothin but your selves tricking you, baiting your self to kill you, because you were not satisfied with the abuse, the misuse, you had to go all the way, and find out what you thought was the last terrain, the very cause celebre go uyou being here, the most essential part of your existence on planet earth: the desire to be snuffed. You becoming the porno staR OF YOUR OWN MOVIE, IN FACT A SELF CRUCIFIXION. HOW ABOUT THAT, TRIXIE? DID YOU DESERVE TO DIE IN THIS FASHION OR NOT?

IS GETTING RAPED BY BOYS REALLY A VERY PAINFUL THING, IN ORDER TO EXIST, TO SURVIVE, YOU HAD TO BE PAINFULLY PENETRATED, SO YOU CAN FEEL SOMETHING. ANYTHING.
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Postby surreptitious57 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 9:05 pm

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:
it made me feel like a worthless loser the worthless loser that I still am

Every day when you wake up from now on I want you to say in a loud voice five times

My name is Trixie and I am a human being who has meaning in her life and so my life is worth living
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 9:36 pm

Thought you believed life was meaningless.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Thu Sep 08, 2016 9:38 pm

jerkey wrote:You may have been equally surprised to find your dream within another dream and that in another and so on. Did you ever have a dream you were falling, falling down a very precipitous height, sort of like in hitchcocks vertigo, and then you woke up only before you hit rock bottom? they say that if you hit rock bottom you would have passed on, but you never ever hit rock bottom, because if you did you would know you were dead, hit the ground, and then see yourself rising unto the realities beyond this.

But what of, like in your dream, you actually saw the killers stab you, rape you, disfigure you, and even metamorphosing into them? What if, that ground, was nothing else as the cause of the confusion, shared by Narcissus, who was severely punished for the confusion, which in fact is no confusion at all, but is the basic reality, that those awful killers were nothin but your selves tricking you, baiting your self to kill you, because you were not satisfied with the abuse, the misuse, you had to go all the way, and find out what you thought was the last terrain, the very cause celebre go uyou being here, the most essential part of your existence on planet earth: the desire to be snuffed. You becoming the porno staR OF YOUR OWN MOVIE, IN FACT A SELF CRUCIFIXION. HOW ABOUT THAT, TRIXIE? DID YOU DESERVE TO DIE IN THIS FASHION OR NOT?

IS GETTING RAPED BY BOYS REALLY A VERY PAINFUL THING, IN ORDER TO EXIST, TO SURVIVE, YOU HAD TO BE PAINFULLY PENETRATED, SO YOU CAN FEEL SOMETHING. ANYTHING.


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I did fall and let myself hit the ground in a dream. Didn't die.
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Postby Meno_ » Fri Sep 09, 2016 12:16 am

Ouch! That must have been horrrrrrrrrenduous. But did you ever wake up, or are you still in a dream? Can you really tell? I would gather, no. The universe is so complex, that this last frontier is as of yet a matter of conjecture. One never knows, therefore only feels.

Esse est percipii, unlike cogito ergo sum. We have reduced ourselves to sporadic whims of our dream like imaginations, in this virtual post modern world.

Our Barbie doll selves, cut up and remixed,re invented mostly by others, have no capacity to get back and figure it all out.
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Postby Ultimate Philosophy 1001 » Fri Sep 09, 2016 12:21 am

It wasn't horrendous. I finally overcame my fear of death and in the dream I was conscious enough to actually remember all the Hollywood meme's that told me about how dying in a dream would make me die in real life.
So the dream was somewhat lucid, and I had the genuine belief I would die in real life, and I just let go, overcame my fear of death. It was actually quite a wonderful feeling.

But nothing happened I am still here.

To be more specific it was one of those flying dreams where I could fly up from the ground I got up to about 300 feet and just let myself...fall
It was one of the best feelings I ever had
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Postby Meno_ » Fri Sep 09, 2016 12:29 am

Well it could all come to a tragic end, therefore some care is required. Art Linkletter, the TV hosts daughter, under the influence, not unlike being in a dream , thought she could fly. Spread her supposed wings and took flight from the top of building they lived in. Needless to say, the results were not desirable.
Those dreams, if they can be called that , often result in a bad contact with reality.

The precedence of thousands of years worth, of Icarus's wings burned by the sun, should not be taken too lightly.

Just a word of caution, Trixi.
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Postby surreptitious57 » Fri Sep 09, 2016 3:31 pm

Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:
Thought you believed life was meaningless

It is in the grand scheme of things but one can still give meaning to ones own
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Postby Arcturus Descending » Sat Sep 10, 2016 7:07 pm

surreptitious57 wrote:
Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:
Thought you believed life was meaningless

It is in the grand scheme of things but one can still give meaning to ones own


Can one really get blood out of a stone?
"Look closely. The beautiful may be small."


"Two things fill the mind with ever new and increasing admiration and awe, the oftener and more steadily we reflect on them: the starry heavens above me and the moral law within me."


“Whereas the beautiful is limited, the sublime is limitless, so that the mind in the presence of the sublime, attempting to imagine what it cannot, has pain in the failure but pleasure in contemplating the immensity of the attempt.”

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Postby Arcturus Descending » Sat Sep 10, 2016 7:11 pm

surreptitious57 wrote:
Ultimate Philosophy 1001 wrote:
it made me feel like a worthless loser the worthless loser that I still am

Every day when you wake up from now on I want you to say in a loud voice five times

My name is Trixie and I am a human being who has meaning in her life and so my life is worth living



...and if she doesn't feel that way? Do we begin with the Lie?
"Look closely. The beautiful may be small."


"Two things fill the mind with ever new and increasing admiration and awe, the oftener and more steadily we reflect on them: the starry heavens above me and the moral law within me."


“Whereas the beautiful is limited, the sublime is limitless, so that the mind in the presence of the sublime, attempting to imagine what it cannot, has pain in the failure but pleasure in contemplating the immensity of the attempt.”

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