I think I might have discovered the secret to why consciousness exists.
Originally I wanted this information to die in my grave, just to spite you all, feel like the world's greatest genius, and giggle to myself maniacally like a bitch.
BUT...
I've decided to share this information...
For free.
There's no money in philosophy.
I will state the list of events that caused me to come to this discovery.
1. I layed down.
2. I started to think of the small amount of good times I had in my life, and said "Why couldn't I make those good times last forever? Why does conscious time always have to move forward? Why is there no friction of conscious time, why does it not obey the laws of physics or inertia? It seems to just speed up and slow down erratically with no correlation to mass, inertia, or energy expenditure. During orgasm all parts of the brains are active, and yet time flies, while during sleep, the brain is much less active, and time also flies."
3. I asked myself, if "I cannot hold onto those good times, what makes those good times me?" I might as well be a different person, in another body, in another life, because I cannot hold on to those good times.
4. And then I discovered what consciousness is...
Consciousness EXISTS because of the forward flow of time. It is an INFINITI of pages and blades, BUILDING ITSELF. It exists because it is a compression of infiniti. It is constant layers and layers of essence, layering on itself to form a thickness which manifests itself as visible. It is visible because it is an INFINITI. It is a data overload, so much that it is infinite data, because it just keeps piling more and more data more than space can handle. So if its more than space can handle, and it exists, something else needs to handle it, in order for containment... it creates something that only you can handle, you: You are the only thing that can percieve it.
Thoughts.
Notes: When I was laying on my left side (blood flowing into my left brain) this seemed profound like I discovered the meaning of life. But when I layed on my right side (blood flowed into my right brain) I just thought of it as average, something only slightly special.