Read both versions left and right, it would take longer then
long to give justice, and both left and right were spectacularly coordinated with a tremendous energy and spent of incredible dedication.
But, let me go back from chapter 24, on the right side, I cried well almost.
Now reading stuff I kind of know about Your biographical sketches of divorce and custody issues. and I know your pain, and I do not know how much you read me, but to think back how my passes son was when he looked up on me with such gentle trusting eyes, is an enormous weight, that I can not near anymore to listen to the song ’ The weight’ at their last concert in San Francisco, and how this event synching with a vision of my wonderful son, with that song and now synching and sinking Starship and prior to that others a vast diagram of of branching out feelings, its just such an overbearing rush and the left side waa mostly as seem by him I am sure of that where as the right was you as you try mix both sides created in me a dizzying feeling of a nostalgic and nauseating nauseating feeling of ennui.
Its long, and and journey like is easy through the mind of parent/child, bittersweet, in my case unrecoverable and unsurpaasable regret and guilt and near insanity , built on tremendous dysfunction, a vision of Alice in wonderland, star trek, mixed with the regressive pathos of children playing with advanced instruments no longer understood , because their adults habe ceased to understand the vastness of the universe lime the German scientist Gertrude wanting to just stay on Uranus.
This is merely first reading, but again chp 24 proved to me to be a devastating remainder I wish I have never read.
Now You may begin to understand why my space ship has floundered about 8 years ago. I wrote his book, that I published after his direction to publish it, much more topical but equally sad, and at the time , when I edited it again and again, I could not take all the mistakes out because my tears prevented clarity .
I hope to fix things what remains of my family another son who has never said to me I love you dad as he meant it, two daughter andnaox grand children. I live for my 3 year old grandson and my daughter needs me almost as.much as she does her husband, which is very burdensome, but everybody says he is so much as my lost son, that it inputess and endless compelling preoccupation.
Thanks Gin, hope to correspond later, as I too plane for.an extended furlough for a.period of.study into the existentialist
In too am a traveler, this year I plan to go to Colorado, Boulder particularly, and maybe Europe again, Hungary, where I am from and maybe Phillippine again, where from my wife is from.