my one tragic wish
is that i could revise what people say to me
so that I can get what I need
from them
the worst part
is that sometimes i trick myself
into thinking that people would say the right things
if only they knew how
but then something shows me
that they basically for the most part
say what they mean to say and want to say
and to think anything other is wishful thinking
but sometimes you find
someone who welcomes
your ideas for revision
of their words
they take your edits with gratitude
and recite them with an authentic smile
because they are excited
and relieved and empowered
to do what they wish they could
which is to make you feel good,
to make you know the main truth
that words failed to express;
to connect, to really really connect
those people fucking rule,
they help you discover yourself
and when they reject your revisions,
which they eventually will,
you know it’s for the right reasons this time
and if you can stomach the blow
you’ve entered holy territory