Pen-Powered Insanity

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I think the most brilliant part of all of this is that I dare to post and say and do things like this right in sight of everyone and everyone hates it and loves it and eats it up while puking it back out because it doesn’t taste just right.

Told you all a couple years ago that you’d want to see this when I told you to just let me fight. Thankfully, you’re loyal, patriotic Americans, or if not Americans; Humans; human patriotism; and you wanted the bloodsport. Luckily, you all were already getting bored with what was already commonplace and I came along just at the right time to save you all from your boredom. Majestically, because I’m a majestic bastard.

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Oh, and once again: Fuck you all. Ban me; come on… ban me permanently. Just get it over with, lol.

Another practical confession of my personal philosophy: I enjoyed entertaining, I enjoyed performing in front of others. While they were scratching their guilty pleasures by watching me and others bleed, I; at least on my own part; was scratching my own guilty pleasure by bleeding in front of them. I wasn’t enjoying it, but I was enjoying it for that reason. It wasn’t supposed to be enjoyable and it wasn’t enjoyable, therefore was enjoyable for that reason alone, along with taking on multiple enemies and gaining ground in arguments in warfare. Before I came here, I lead a campaign across a very small section of the internet; very small. And yet, I went international with it. Between politics on NationStates and World of Warcraft and Roblox Paintball, along with a few other places here and there, I fought against the legion of trolls and even took it international, gained the attention of the world before I even set out from home; before I even stepped foot in here.

A danger to governments, a danger to others as they were a danger to me, the fact that I was ripping up multiple people while losing myself in the mix, being lost, not knowing as much as I do now, and when knowing, not seeing, constantly gaining ground but constantly losing, and, I was coming out of the tail end of that right as I stepped foot in here as you all watched me push myself. I enjoyed it. I brought the world to your doorstep and used this as a stepping stone; a place to fight without getting thrown out that served as that stepping stone from there to what I now do in the mind no matter where I am. I’ve been successfully able to rip people up, entirely pissed off, all while restraining myself and giving bare-minimum body language showment of it and knowing full well that they’re hearing every word I speak through psychic connections of mass-consciousness. It’s what has enabled me to go 4 years homeless, on the streets, talking how I talk and walking how I walk, without once having to fight or kill physically, just by showing I was able to and the full tilt I could take it to for what I mastered here, first.

This place was the turning point in World War 3. Let that sink in.

My death clock is looking pretty awesome these days. Anywho, getting close to that hour.

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Some woman who will remain nameless asked me a while back… ‘what does God want with my pussy?’ I replied, ‘to stuff my cock in it.’

Gonna go out with the smell of lotus flowers still fresh in my nostrils, I think. They’re in bloom this year. I’m also pretty sure I go out on my knees with some hot, feisty thing holding a gun at my head.

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Then again, I might just be insane. Might just be crazy, having a stain of pain and damage upon my brain causing me to refrain from the ways of living on the societal train. I could be just a few steps off from reaching the actuality of how the world works and there might not be fate or free will and these notions of a society bred in depravity could just be… well, the mutterings of the depraved.

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The other day, I broke through the barrier in addiction; meth addiction namely. Now, I find it easier to come down from the high, easier to walk away from people I see smoking it without asking for some, etcetera. I was having an easy time of it before now, but now it’s an even easier time and noticeably so. Unlike Gib, I did not raise a big fuss about what I was doing or when or how; I merely stated what I was doing, how and why in pure straight-to-the-point fashion of I am doing this for further studies in psychology, paranormal/supernatural studies and for my own interest in drugs and mental exercises. To my own credit, I waited to try meth in my life until I was sure I could handle it, it’s been a rollercoaster ride much the same as it’s been for anybody and everybody else, and the withdrawals and highs have been Hellish Torture and Heavenly Bliss rolled into one. I will continue smoking Meth until the very day that I die, but as someone who can literally walk away from it any time I choose rather than being ridden by it.

This is what success looks like, for those who lack a backbone to find their own.

All you need is positivity

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Love is evolution, spell it backwards and you will begin to see… that love is painful, but only because it needs to be, has to be; some times wants to be.

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I am Reality.

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Daddy’s here; there will be more nightmares.

So… I hit a point recently that’s going to make the rest of my existence far easier. I was already moving that direction already, but it cleared some things up. It called for a change in avatar and signature as well as a continuance of discussions that were put somewhat on hold. My apologies for the delays, but emotional constraints are emotional constraints.

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Sat by his window in the afternoon, he just discovered this record, I always forgot the name right, remembered it wrong, thought it was the Wolga, Or the Donau but it is the Moldau. So I only found the melody back a long time after he was dead. Well, he still is dead, so I guess I found it right away.

Ach schoenen Abend wo gehst du hin,
Du, schlaues Wesen, dass machst du immer wieder

Levertraan en Paddestoel in het Dierenrijk, deel 8

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I was in New Orleans for a week and I had a fever all week, then I got on a greyhound to El Paso. Since I was poor the fever didn’t stop me from walking through the city and meeting all its witches and cooks. It was way before Katrina ever happened, still weird as all hell or any Ive ever seen, could be Africa or probably it was like natives … so much proper magic, good ones, good clarity of vision in all of them. One Nova Burst specialist had a bow and arrow on his back as he told me to go with the flow. I asked what if there is no flow? He said there is always a flow you just got to find it. Beyond El Paso we came to the Land of Enchantment and the Sun was setting. I never through back to the old archer. Well he was a young dude, stoned out of his gored, but I never thought back, to say to him hey man, you don’t even know how right you were.

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Thank you for the first and third; I found no value in the second.