Just a few days ago, I decided to ignore my auntās cry for help. She was apparently in deep pain. She was beggining to be turned around (she couldnāt do it due to paraplegia.) I choose not do so. In fact, I even considered telling her directly that I didnāt want to do so. Mind you, I didnāt want her to die or to suffer. I just didnāt want to give into her whims. I thought she was quite whimsical. After two hours of ignoring her I decided to help her. Her consciousness started to degrade at a very fast rate every since. She died three days later. She had a metastasis, so I was aware that she was going to die, but not this fast. I feel a little bit of guilt. Perhaps if I helped her that night she wouldnāt have died . . . that thought haunts me in my dreams. But I am not sure that it is justified. She refused professional help and she relied too much on me. I am no nurse. I wanted to help. But I didnāt want to offer her the kind of āhelpā she asked for. Sometimes, you want to let people suffer. It is the right choice. She denied that she was sick. In fact, she denied she was in pain. She didnāt want me to hire a professional nurse to take care of her. There was no other choice.
Magnus, I think this shows that you have a very strong resolve, but that you also have a living conscience within you.
^ This incident may (or it may not) be a case where the two have come into conflict. I think you have to decide what counts for you, at least in this case, as strength and weakness.
We would probably need the concert of many or at least a few voices from the past carried into the present to establish that. Does past behavior necessarily determine future behavior albeit past experience may very well.
Since my puberty I have been looking younger, first one, then two, three, four, five and at last even ten years younger than I should according to my respective real age. But that has nothing to do with precociousness. Precociousness has to do with the predisposition of being precocious; so it is more a question of the genotype than of the phenotype. Or do you mean that the look, outwardness or other formality of the appearance can clearly show precociousness. Is, for instance, a full beard of an fourteen year old āboyā really a sign of precociousness? If so, then I have never been precocious. I was one of the last three or four (out of 40) pupils in my school class who became pubescent. I think that the word āprecociousnessā means something different, namely something that has to do with the behavior. Relating to this I can likely say that I was precocious. I do not know for sure. Therefore I said:
Trying to understand what you exactly meant by āprecociousnessā, I googled the word and found not only other words, but also some photos.
Does one of the following four photos show - more or less - the meaning of āprecociousnessā?
If so: Which one ist it?
In every case one can find also other reasons (e.g.: autism, wrong or unidirectional education) why those kids are what we think they are. They are not or not necessarily precocious. Or are they (according to you)?
Iāve met lots of people who are so desperate for attention, care, and āloveā that they will hurt themselves to get it. I knew of a couple that had a psychopathic relationship. The girlfriend would literally hold her boyfriend hostage with threats of suicide. āIf you donāt love me then Iāll kill myself.ā Itās very cruel and selfish by the person who makes such demands. They are usually women who do this, but sometimes children. Males usually do not do this because of having lesser value. Itās a very depraved and ignoble disposition, without pride, without honor.
Then again, there are those with too much pride, too much honor, and never ask for help when they should, or when they need to. So thereās two sides to this phenomenon.
Iām doing my thing. Iāve decided that Iām terminally illā¦ requiring soothing routines (like morphine would be for late stage cancer) - and thatās my life unless a āmiracleā happensā¦ these soothing elements have become such a part of my life by now, I may keep them even if something āmiraculousā happens
Well thatās one way to force yourself to make life more interesting / more palatableā¦ like when someone decides to say āyesā to everything. I did that a few years backā¦ it got real boring real quick, and the only things Iād have been saying yes to would be sex drugs and rock n rollā¦ I aināt part of the great de-bauched.
I decided that soothing, meaningful, fun things would be the answer.
Just have been working and chilling. Got a promotion with this job I have and work where I live since I do property management. I havenāt been doing much philosophy really. Usually people always disagree just to disagree.