Why bro?
You’re you and you agree with your own conscience, in line with what you think and what you believe to be true and right. Who cares if there’s some perceived grey ground within you that risks overlapping with some collective identity deemed “left” or “right”? Feeling like you can’t be yourself because of factors not considered to be part of your self - surely that’s gotta feel like SHIT.
I thought you were against that kind of thinking anyway - the whole group identity thing with the collectivist mindset? It’s clear you do think in that way with regard to your Jewish heritage and Racism - “race” being a collective group identity. You’re gonna find yourself overlapping with the left any time you do that, and think in terms beyond the individual. Personally I think it’s ridiculous to deny the existence of thought that occurs either in terms of the individual or the group, it’s perfectly possible to make meaningful considerations at any level of abstraction. To reduce the whole thing to absurdity: even the self is a collective of body parts made of cells and so on, and even a race has particular individual instances of DNA pervading throughout, along with cultural traditions, stories and languages. Even your own identity as an individual relies on language within a socio-cultural context.
So of course you’re gonna find yourself spilling over messily into all kinds of categories. I get it - there’s characteristics of the left that are evil in your eyes, and you want to distance yourself from them at all costs because you don’t want to be evil. That’s your conscience, as I mentioned earlier. It has resolved to “other” a certain kind of thinking/person, with whom you don’t want anything to do, and with whom you don’t even want to feel remotely associated.
I think of myself as a “lefto”, as I’m sure you think of me too, but even as “evil” as I am to you, even I appreciate that humanity is messy. I love my clean cut analytic philosophy for picking apart arguments to undo cognitive biases and logical fallacies, but ultimately I’m an authentic individual even though I sympathise with the left more than the right. I think in both ways: individualistic and collectivist, because how in the hell can I empathise if I “other” entire categories of people? How in the hell can I understand what’s really going on if I dissociate myself from whole sections of reality?
Think back to the lefty hippies of the 60s and 70s - they wanted to integrate with the “Injuns” and the pagans, and to incorporate the wisdom of those traditions into their own lives - just as you’re attributing to the Americans, Republicans and good people of today. What has leftism evolved into now? How much have you or I changed as individuals over the course of time? It’s messy, man - and the only way to keep up without getting swept away by it all is to know how to stand back as an objective impartial yardstick against which to order and compare all the greyness and all the change, while simultaneously being able to integrate yourself healthily back within all the chaos and be one with it.