[b]Jennifer Jason Leigh
I don’t need a reason to kill myself—I need a reason not to.[/b]
You know, from time to time.
You know, you really do choose your existence in a way.
Still, not nearly as much as you don’t.
I like to investigate all different kinds of people, I guess, and find out what makes them who they are, and try to be honest in the portrayal, and truthful, and find out how to understand that person, how to communicate that person’s experience.
On the other hand, look where that got me.
I hope my talent has something to do with it. I just think this business is so crazy. I obviously do the best I can, and the directors I admire see something in me. But this is a strange business, and there are people who are incredibly talented who never make it, who never get these opportunities. So that’s why I say I’m lucky. I don’t feel that I’m not talented - I think I am talented - but I also think I’m very lucky.
Now imagine the implications of this for, say, you and I.
Even when you think you can detach yourself from the characters, you don’t. Because you’re spending so much time trying to realize this person and make them real that they do infect you, in a way. And you do take them home and live with them, even if you think you’re turning the character off. But in order to pull off a role convincingly, you wind up thinking about that person all the time, and it does sort of creep into you. And then there are things that you’ll respond to, or react to in a very different way than you would normally.
Not unlike some the characters I play here, he thought.
I just don’t plan things. I live a month at a time.
Sounds like planning to me.